How God has used this group to help me!
It has helped me in my personality, in my spiritual life, in my marriage, in my social life as well. It taught me to be a better daughter, better sister, better mother, and better wife. It has been a change that required a lot from my part. Due to the fact that in that moment I was going through many problems in my marriage, it wasn’t easy for me to accept that I had to start giving the first step for a change in my life.
I used to say and think and was convinced that my husband was the cause of these problems and he was the one who had to take the first step, not me. It was my pride that would stop me. I even wanted to leave the group, but God didn’t let me. I knew I had to do it, it was a spiritual war in my interior, if I didn’t do it I would lose and if I did do it, I wouldn’t lose anything but my pride. I started doing my tasks, some of them were easy and others very hard. And it wasn’t because of work, but because of my pride and the anger that I had against my husband made it so difficult. But little by little and with the help of God, I started doing it with more joy and love.
The fights that we had on a daily basis started to decrease. The physical abuse was the first thing that stopped because many times I was the one who would throw myself at him beating him up. I stopped that right away because this attitude would destroy me more. I felt like a monster.
Most of my unhappiness was due to my attitudes, my reactions and what came out of my mouth. These things made me dead spiritually. As for the problems that I had at home I wouldn’t like to be visited by anyone. Neither my mom nor my brother. I would keep the blinds closed all day. I wasn’t doing well in life but thanks to God, He gave me the strength to continue in the group.
Now I feel renewed, fresh. I like to help those who request help from me and I do it very gladly. I feel alive. Now I don’t act as I used to, I’m learning to control my emotions and my feelings. And this is something that I have to practice every day. New different situations occur where one is at the point of losing control and become overtaken by their emotions. This is difficult but not impossible.
There were times when my husband told me to go see a psychiatrist. But because of this group God has been my doctor and my strength, he has used each one of the big trainers to help me. And I have learned from each one something different that has helped me a lot. God bless all of you very much, as well as the pastor’s wives, who have been there to help me. All of you make a great team of God. This is my testimony, I have returned to live life with joy and now I learned that I shouldn’t worry about the problems, God has the solution to each one of them. I just have to trust in him.
I couldn’t eat or sleep and I was always worried. Now I value and love myself and I take care of myself because I understand that my body is the temple of God. Now I try to feed myself better by doing exercises and taking vitamins and of course the most important, searching more of God.